Dec. 23, 2003: Affirmation, at last

Well, doesn't it figure. I finally get a guy to show some real interest and initiative shortly after an audition—the instant affirmation I so crave—and it's someone I feel only lukewarm about. Yep—Alan just called, a little before noon, to see if I'd like to go down to Michigan Avenue to do some shopping. He left a voicemail saying he received my thank-you email yesterday and had a great time at dinner, too (not that I had said I had a great time—I basically just said thanks again and wished him luck on a sales call I knew he would be making). I laughed at his message when he said he probably wouldn't buy anything for anyone else while shopping today, saying "It's all about Alan." So far, he's definitely been better on the phone.

I don't want to head downtown today—I'm finished with my Christmas shopping, having done most of it online, and have some work to do, plus it's cold outside. And, I must admit, I've been looking forward to a no-workout, no-shower day. I do want to see him again, though, if only to see if there's any potential. Maybe I can suggest something for tomorrow? I better make up my mind quickly because the cleaning lady just arrived, so I need to head out for a few hours.

Called him and got his voicemail—kind of a relief, being the wimp I am. I did, however, suggest we could meet for lunch or something tomorrow. So we'll see where we go from here.